I wonder...

I wonder...what is God thinking about today (for those of you not familiar with the judeo-christian calendar today is the first night of passover which is also the night Jesus was betrayed and the day before he was crucified)?

I know what I think about around the anniversary of Connor's death. I replay the events in my mind over and over and over. Wondering. Questioning. Crying. The memories are so vivid. The emotions are so intense and raw. It feels like it happened yesterday.

I wonder...does God still replay the events of those fateful days, almost 2000 years ago, over and over in His mind? Does He still wonder, question and cry; wishing it could have all ended differently for His son?

I wonder...